hur ser andra mej ?
jag ser bara kaos . . . .
jag vill inte längre.. äter å äter å äter för att gå upp i vikt och kan inte träna ordentligt just nu pga inflammationen och ryggen ... (har dock tränat som sjukgymnasten sa för att bli bättre. läkaren vet vell bäst) sååå jag borde gått upp massor men vågen står på 55,2  den stod på knappa 54  innan jag vart sjukskriven (en månad sen).. 

vad händer med mej ? 

alla säger att jag är fin och allt de dära men allt jag ser är kaos och spegelbilden tycker jag definitivt inte om. 

vad är det som är så bra med det ? 

men jag lever ett bra liv endå med finaste baby.<3

meen jag gillar sällan det jag ser i spegeln. 

 "The Places You Have Come To Fear The Most"

Buried deep as you can dig inside yourself

And covered with a perfect shell
Such a charming, beautiful exterior
Laced with brilliant smiles and shining eyes
Perfect posture, but you're barely scraping by
But you're barely scraping by

This is one time, this is one time
That you can't fake it hard enough to please everyone
Or anyone at all...or anyone at all
And the grave that you refuse to leave
The refuge that you've built to flee
The places that you've come to fear the most
It's the place that you have come to fear the most

Buried deep as you can dig inside yourself
And hidden in the public eye
Such a stellar monument to loneliness
Laced with brilliant smiles and shining eyes
Perfect make-up, but you're barely scraping by
But you're barely scraping by...

Well this is one time, well this is one time
That you can't fake it hard enough to please everyone
Or anyone at all...or anyone at all
And the grave that you refuse to leave
The refuge that you've built to flee
The places that you've come to fear the most
It's the place that you have come to fear the most

And you can't fake it hard enough to please everyone
Or anyone at all..or anyone at all
And the grave that you refuse to leave
The refuge that you've built to flee
The places that you've come to fear the most
It's the place that you've come to fear the most
It's the place that you have come to fear the most